Now, I find it so immature. When I almost forgot that I am a few years older. That these things are not the things that I should be dealing with at the moment. I had a talk to my mother and got the chance to tell her the story. She was surprised. (Just because she thought that this girl is really of high standard.) And then my stories proven her wrong. And now she did the talking and I’m kinda shocked to hear this.
A few months ago the mother of this girl talked to her. Well, it’s not really unusual because they are really friends ever since. Maybe not best friends, but not strangers either. So she (the girl’s mom) approached my mother and told her the dilemma. She is alarmed by her daughter’s relationship with this man who happened to be my ex. So to make the long story short, she hates the guy. I’m hurt to know this because the ex is really nice. He doesn’t deserve to be hated like this, at least. My mother was also shocked to hear this. First, she never thought that the two have something special in between. (But she told me that she has been seeing the couple together.) And second, she’s also surprised by how this mother commented on her daughter’s relationship. At this point, I felt pity. I don’t know to whom. To the ex whose been very nice and loving? To the daughter whose relationship is not being accepted by her family? Or to the mother who wants nothing but a clear view of her daughter’s future? And then I realized how people define love in many different ways.
It’s just so sad to hear stories like this. I understand that our parents only want us to be successful in the future. But to the point that you talk to someone just to raise the story, it’s a different agenda. I don’t understand why she picked my mother to tell all of these. Maybe she knows that I am the ex and she wants some information how our relationship ended. Or she wants a piece of advice from another mother who experienced the same. Well, she was all wrong. Because my mother liked him, a way different on how she sees this man now.
I am not really after their love story. I know him very well. He’ll do good. But whenever I think of the incident, and the words. The words. They are just so painful.
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To you. I am being honest now. After the things you have told about me, it’s still me whose writing an entry like this. So pathetic. But this marks the end. I am sorry if I have caused pain in you, but I realized that you have a lot of important things to attend. Don’t make time for me. I am just nothing. And to another You. You are doing it again. Saying bad things about me to make you feel great. You hurt me when you called me chaka not because of the word, but because it came from a person I least expected to say it. I wonder if it really came from you or your girlfriend made up the story (which is very likely to happen). Goodluck to both of you. May you have a happy journey in life.
